the milk maid

I have now joined the rank of mothers from all species who wake up one morning to find that they are a milk factory. I couldn't imagine how breastfeeding would feel before Hazel came into this world. However, it's so natural that the instant she arrived, I held her to my breast and she's spent a huge portion of her life there ever since. I LOVE looking down and seeing her suckling. It's beautiful. Even better are the silly faces that she makes when she pauses or switches sides.

That brings me to what I really wanted to blog about. This week Jake bought Almond Milk for our cereal. It tastes good with cereal, but I'm completely baffled by it. All I can think as I'm eating is: "You can milk just about anything with nipples." "I have nipples, Greg, could you milk me?" (quote from Meet the Parents). And then I think, but almonds DON'T have nipples, so what's really going on here?

Any ideas?


pretty like a rose

photo by S. Everitt. edited by J-ROK

The title is a line from a lullaby that my mom and Grandma K. used to sing to me. I've been humming the melody to Hazel, but don't remember all of the words. Fortunately, my mom will be here in a week and will reteach me her lullaby repertoire (in her spare time from the list of projects I have waiting for her! mwahaha!!!). In the meantime, Hazel's favorites are "Lullaby" by Billy Joel, "Edelweiss", and the dozen that Jake and I make up every time she's awake :)

It's been over a week and the fact that I'm a MOM is still quite a shock. I'm trying to take things easy and I spend most of my time with her feeding or sleeping on my chest. It's heavenly. Despite the fact that she sleeps about 20-22 hours a day, I feel pretty drained most of the time! I've always been one that needs her sleep and so adjusting to be awake every 2-3 hours is tough.

I still plan to write about her birth experience, but I don't feel quite ready yet. For those of you who want to see lots of pics of Hazel, you need to join Facebook! For the rest of you, I'll post on here as often as I can (though it's hard to juggle a feeding baby and using a laptop... which I'm doing it right now!).


Hazel Mari

Born 7/8/09. 5lbs, 14oz. 19 inches. A perfect 10 on the Apgar. The sweetest thing I've ever seen.

Dear KoskerReaders:
If you are not interested in seeing pictures of the most beautiful being ever created or hearing endless tales about the perfection and charm of one particular human, please throw your computer out of a 5th story window.

To the rest of the world:
SHE'S HERE! She arrived 5 weeks early and took us by surprise. But, she's fabulous!

Soon I will post my thoughts about the whole experience, but for now I just wanted to share a few pics of my greatest joy.

p.s.: For the record, we did not know her gender until she arrived or her name until about 15 hours after her birth.


What's growing in our garden?

Our yard is SO beautiful, if I may say so myself! It's been a little too hot to spend much time in the garden lately, but when I go out in the morning or evening I'm shocked at how much life is blooming!

Let's play "where's Waldo". Can you find: Broccoli, Peanut the rabbit (who we're trying to get pregnant again 'cause her babies have all been eaten... YUM), Snap Peas, Adult Quail in their cage, 1 week old Quail Chicks, Pickel the cat, a forest of Potato plants, Green Peppers, huge heads of Lettuce, a Blooming Cactus, my favorite Dusty Purple Rose, Pansies, a growing Kosker Fetus, and more???

Our garden is suffering a bit this year so we won't be having tons of tomatoes and lemon cucumbers like we did last year. But our peppers look tasty, Jake his first ever successful broccoli and we will have TONS of potatoes! The sugar baby watermelons are beginning to look promising and I'm already salivating thinking of them! Of course, there's a lot more going on out there, but it's Jake's thing and I really can't claim much credit for or knowledge about the garden :)

p.s. If you click on the picture collage, you will see a bigger version of it. Just use your "back" button to return to my blog.


confession time

I feel the need to write a confession blog:

1. The bottom of my shower hasn't been cleaned for WEEKS... and I'm using my "I'm pregnant" card to refrain from doing it for the foreseeable future. It's gross.

2. I went to the cheap grocery store today, Jolly July 3rd, and was SHOCKED at how busy it was. I literally couldn't even look at the produce section because it was so crowded. Anyway, I just want to confess that I JUDGE people by the contents of their shopping cart. Specifically, I judge parents who have 3 little ones and their cart is overflowing with Lunchables, Chicken Nuggets, and other processed, prepared foods.

3. I also judge people standing outside smoking. I walk a nice 2-mile circuit through my neighborhood that passes by the State Mental Hospital. The perimeter of the property is always lined with employees smoking "off grounds". I JUDGE each and every one of them and walk a little bit taller. (that being said, I still love and respect my smoker friends)

4. There was an unknown substance on the floor this morning. I touched it with my toe and since I couldn't identify it, I promptly decided to pretend I didn't notice it. A few minutes ago, Jake shared a story about how there was a big cat turd in the hallway this morning (he picked it up, dropped it, washed his hands, and then realized that he needed to pick it up again in order to put it in the litter box). Julie-1, Jake-0.

4 1/2. Jake just read my posting ('cause I'm laughing so hard at myself). He admitted that one evening he heard the cat puking in our office. He decided to pretend that it happened after he went to bed. In the morning the cat had eaten it anyway, so he didn't tell me about it... until now. Julie-1, Jake-1.

5. I truly don't know how to write without the use of a gazillion parentheses and dashes. My parents sent me to a ritzy college and I still don't know how to use the English language. (Sorry - mom - and - dad!)

6. Today I promised my fetus to feed it more ice cream if it stays in the correct position. I just did it to ease my guilt about eating ice cream almost every day. My mothering skills should be questioned!

Ah, I feel much better :)